Wednesday, July 2, 2008

It's a sad, sad, day ...

I started today like any other Wednesday - excited and happy knowing I was off to spend the day at Scrapbooks Etc in Underwood ... little did I know that my day would end in tears. I had a very productive day and managed to finish off some layouts (except for the journalling, which I'll do on the computer later). I finished up at around 3pm and made my way back down to the Gold Coast, I dropped into the Wild Bean at Stapylton to get my regular afternoon coffee, went to the Post Office at Oxenford to send a birthday present to Ferg's dad and some ATCs off to America for a trade, ran into Jane in the discount shop and stopped for a natter with her and her friend visiting from South Africa and then Ferg called me and sounded very strange on the phone ... said he'd speak to me when I got home. Of course, I was intrigued and wanted to find out what he wanted to speak to me about and drove straight home.

Sylvia (crying), Dave, Alexis and Ferg came to meet me at the car and then they dropped the bomb-shell ... Ed our Dalmation had been put down at the vet today because they discovered during his operation that he was riddled with cancer and the tumours had started to burst in his stomach ... apparently he wouldn't have lasted the week. Ed our healthy, happy, excited 7 year old dog was gone. I keep seeing Ed last night with his head in my lap, patting him as Ferg and I sat in the waiting room at the vet, knowing he wasn't himself, he wasn't feeling good, he was looking really thin and sad. I still can't believe there will be no more Ed barking and running up to our cars as we drive up to the house to greet us ... no more Ed yelping excitedly and jumping around knowing that one of us was about to go for a walk ... no more Ed licking Alexis' face as she comes outside because he's the same height as her ... no more Ed smiling as only Dalmations can when we gave him love and attention ... no more Ed - he's gone. I'm so sad, I loved him so much and he wasn't even my dog ... I'm going to miss you Ed ... especially our walks together and your barking to let us know a car is coming down the driveway ... I felt safe with you near.


Love you ... miss you.
"Dogs are our link to paradise. They don't know evil or jealousy or discontent. To sit with a dog on a hillside on a glorious afternoon is to be back in Eden, where doing nothing was not boring - it was peace."
~ Milan Kundera ~

4 comments:

Jill Brown said...

Hey Di
It's Jill. Sorry to hear about Ed. I kind of know how you feel. I had a pussycat in my life for only a year. I grew to love that pussycat like I had known him my whole life. He was my friend who kept me company when I was home on my own (besides all the other things we did together!) I love that I have photos of him like you do of Ed and I created a beautiful album of him almost immediately so I could remember all the fabulous things about him. I didn't want to forget anything(I think it was a bit of a carthathis as well). I figured I was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all and I think about him every day. We have a solar light in the ground next to where he is buried so I think of him everyday when I look out my kitchen window. If you want to have a cry or share his qualities with me, I'm happy to listen. Animals so leave footprints on your heart, don't they!

Jill Brown said...

Oops! That would be carthasis.

Anonymous said...

Hi Diana,
I just read your blog to find out that Ed has died. I am so sorry and I am crying as I was so touched by your words and the photos with Alexis are beautiful. I think the loss of a loved animal is heart wrenching and I am thinking of all of you and hope that you will heal soon.
All my love and sympathy.
Jean

Anonymous said...

Diana - -
Just stopped by your blog to view the WTAs and saw the post about your dear Ed passing away. I know your heart is broken and words alone cannot relieve your grief, but please know that my sympathies are with you and your family. I hope that your heavy heart is lightened a little more each day with the wonderful memories and recollections of the days you were blessed with such a special love.
Regards,
Shelly R. Sessions
New Orleans, LA